What Could It Mean for My Child to Inherit My Anxiety?
And does asking these questions make me a good mother?
I feel sadI feel angryI’m scaredThere’s nothing to be afraid ofDon’t worry.
I’m scaredmy stomach hurtsI can’t go to schoolI hate you
everyshhh, shhh, shhh
It’s okay, it’s okay, it’s okay.
You’re not afraid he’ll stop breathing? You don’t think we should check the temperature in the nursery? Can we turn up the volume on the baby monitor so we’ll hear him as soon as he cries?
Don’t borrow feelings from the futureWe have enough to deal with in the present. then
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