Cover Photo: An image of a woman holding a baby in a hallway
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What Could It Mean for My Child to Inherit My Anxiety?

And does asking these questions make me a good mother?

enough

I feel sadI feel angryI’m scaredThere’s nothing to be afraid ofDon’t worry.

I’m scaredmy stomach hurtsI can’t go to schoolI hate you

everyshhh, shhh, shhh

It’s okay, it’s okay, it’s okay.

You’re not afraid he’ll stop breathing? You don’t think we should check the temperature in the nursery? Can we turn up the volume on the baby monitor so we’ll hear him as soon as he cries?

Don’t borrow feelings from the futureWe have enough to deal with in the present. then

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Hannah Matthews is a librarian and writer based in Portland, Maine. Her work has appeared in  Esquire, McSweeney's, SELF Magazine, The Lily,  BUST, Entropy, and other publications. She tweets at @hannahmsays, receives emails at [email protected], and cries in public places.