Bodies

Searching for a Safe Place to Swim

The idea that a place exists where trans people are free to be in and around the water fills me with joy.

Oct 14, 2021
Going from Other to Local in Mumbai

I was certain my appearance would mask my secret: that I didn’t belong.

Sep 29, 2021
My Radical Instagram Sangha: A Love Letter

A space has been created by this unflinching journalism, this unabashed Instagram memoir.

Sep 15, 2021
God Wants You to Be Thin (and Other Lies the Evangelical Church Taught Me)

I believed I had been nurtured, like a lamb, for one purpose: Mine was to be thin.

Sep 09, 2021
My Year of Nocturnal Panic

Each night, I faced my fear. Again and again, I went to bed.

Aug 17, 2021
Finding a Face for My Invisible Illness

I could only acknowledge my thyroid condition from sly, sideways angles—a hobbit stealing from a sleeping dragon’s hoard.

What Could It Mean for My Child to Inherit My Anxiety?

And does asking these questions make me a good mother?

Jul 19, 2021
Getting Bad Tattoos Helped Me Grow

Not-great tattoos remind you that you are a constantly evolving human—that your definitions of beauty and happiness may change form.

Jul 01, 2021
Digital Distortions: Reflections on Zoom and Body Dysmorphia

We’ve spent quarantine in faulty mirrors, sparking negative feedback loops.

Jun 29, 2021
Business in the Front, Rebellion in the Back

My childhood rat tail was a lesson on the borders of class and gender.

Jun 15, 2021
Cut Knuckles

There—the small red cut marks on the knuckles, which any bulimic could identify as those made by the teeth when finger-inducing vomiting.

Jun 09, 2021
How Heaux Tales Taught Me to Shed Shame

Like Jazmine Sullivan’s “The Other Side,” a song from her latest EP, Heaux Tales, I saw a life outside the confines of conservatism—the length of my skirt and the policing of what I was allowed to say and do.

Jun 08, 2021
That Uncomfortable Feeling of Being Wanted for My “Almond-Shaped” Eyes

My former therapist, a well-meaning white woman, once asked me, “Do you think he treated you badly because you are Asian?”

Jun 02, 2021
Notes From a White-Passing Asian

Can you ever escape your complicity when you can't escape your own skin?

May 26, 2021
Inheriting an Autoimmune Disease and an Instinct for Survival

Science provides me with a vocabulary of illness, confirming what my body already knows: that it will never be the same

May 10, 2021
How My Body Spoke to Me in Sickness

I was convinced that I could handle it all—including healing myself.

Apr 29, 2021
I Wasn’t Supposed to Love Me

Nothing has gotten better—not the pandemic, not racism—but I know, and the Black women in my life tell me so, that everything will be alright.

Mar 18, 2021
What Adopting a Dog Taught Me About My Eating Disorder

During those first weeks, I was in a never-ending, often failing battle with Penny, then an eight-pound roly-poly of a beagle

Mar 18, 2021
Tracing the Seams

This body is the home of both a female and a male self, and I am not yet sure how to help it accommodate all of me best.

Feb 04, 2021
My Body Only Feels Right When It Isn’t My Own

I want to inhabit a form that doesn’t define me; I want to inhabit a form in a way that lets me define it.

Jan 07, 2021