Columns

I Traded My Image for Money, Now I Want It Back

The largest archive of footage of myself, ages twenty-three to thirty-years-old, never belonged to me but is owned by brands.

Jan 21, 2021
My Mother Lives Here Because I Live Here

It was the middle of a pandemic. Mom had just died of cancer. Why leave my home of four and a half years?

Jan 20, 2021
Rewatching ‘Freaks and Geeks’ in a Polarized America

For all the pain, there is also beauty in the margins those outside of them may never understand.

Jan 19, 2021
How to Live Under Capitalism, According to ‘Stardew Valley’

‘Stardew Valley’ doesn’t challenge capitalism by trying to escape from it, but by teaching a lesson on generosity.

Jan 14, 2021
The Three Corpses

From the beginning, I knew that terror is a god. But now, I also believe that what might sound like a death rattle is merely the echo of ancestral song.

Jan 13, 2021
Stumbling Stones

As a queer descendant of Holocaust survivors, I knew my first time visiting Berlin—a hub of queer life and Holocaust memorials—would not be easy.

Jan 13, 2021
How Scent Returned My Life to Me

The raw stuff of life is only changed by the meanings we give it. Memory can be dissolved by scent, but also redeemed.

Jan 11, 2021
What My Mental Illness Taught Me About Self-Control

There are entire lines of therapy that basically boil down to “learn self-control so you never upset the sane.”

Jan 07, 2021
What I Learned about Queerness and Latinidad While Working at Telemundo

We were two stereotypes—the sassy gay best friend, and the hyper-sexualized reporter—working at a place that highlighted our biggest insecurities.

Jan 06, 2021
When the Internet Still Felt Like a Place, I Went There to Forget About My Body

On the internet, I didn’t have a body. It was like astral projecting into a secret treehouse with other non-embodied weirdos.

Dec 16, 2020
How to Be a Husband

I was husbanding—providing for my household by physically taking care of my land and livestock. And they were providing for me.

Dec 14, 2020
What Does It Take to Be a Woman Who Has It All?

When we look at women who work, what remains unseen and what is expected to remain hidden?

Dec 03, 2020
My Great-Grandfather’s Saddle Rug Helps Me Remember a Tibet That’s Gone

I borrowed a bicycle and explored, in the same way my great-grandfather had gone about on his pony sixty years earlier.

Nov 30, 2020
How I'm Learning to Manage Rage as a Bipolar Woman

Are these the only two stories? The one, where you defeat your monster, and the other, where you succumb to it?

Nov 19, 2020
First You Must Know Something Is Wrong

Everyone’s experience of a diagnosis is different. Here is mine: A key opens a lock I didn’t know existed, sending a door swinging wide.

Nov 16, 2020
Get Your Kicks on Route 66: A Comic

I’ll drive with that tender balance of guilt and curiosity and a lifetime of learning and unlearning, still looking for an America that was there, is there, and will be there.

Oct 23, 2020
How Mental Illness Became a Scapegoat for Trump’s White Supremacy

When you attribute someone’s evil actions to their mental health status rather than their actual root cause—like white supremacy—then that evil is no longer presented as a choice.

Oct 21, 2020
How Years of Running Beauty Focus Groups Nearly Destroyed Me

I am the only one in the room who is neither asked nor allowed to answer: “How does that make you feel?”

Oct 20, 2020
The Year of Breath

I try to feel my lungs expanding and contracting, just to make sure they still are. There is something soothing, like the indigo of a fading day, in that reminder.

Oct 15, 2020